January 2009
33 posts
1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8.9.10
1. Moved in with Mike. :) Yay. I love it, but we don’t have a computer yet so there may be a few days or a week in between some blogs.
2. I started working at Denny’s. I’m a dishwasher. That means I’m the shift bitch.
3. I’m SORE. Who ever thought washing dishes would make you so sore??
4. My mom worked at the same Denny’s when she was my age. It’s...
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1. Moving. :)
2. Scared to death.
3. I hate how the past hinders who I am today.
4. I wish things would have gone differently sometimes.
5. We’re the coolest two people i know. :)
1.2.3.4.5.6.7 (i want to believe...)
1. I don’t take that kind of advice, thank you very much.
2. I’ll just fuck it up? So, what, it’s gonna be something new and different? Fuck you.
3. I’m ridiulously nostalgic today.
4. I’m freaking the fuck out. Does that make you feel better? Does it make you feel better that I have more doubts than I have the breath to share?
5. Jump out of planes. Parachute...
1.2.3.4.5.6
1. Ack. Leave it. LEAVE IT.
2. Not a word, people. I will not have you criticizing what I’m about to do. It’s probably not exactly practical or completely rational…but I’m going to do it anyway.
3. Ever wish you could be a sleeping dog? Happy and warm laying on some giant fluffy pillow…
4. I smell deodorant, I don’t know where it’s coming from....
Thrash Unreal, Against Me
1. (no mother ever dreams that her daughter will...
1. Ok, so LISTEN. I’m not saying that drug addicts aren’t losers because, they are. (I should know, I was one.) But, I think it would be neat if people stopped thinking that people go “Hey, I want to be a (crackhead, junkie, etc.). I want to have to steal, I want to end up doing this drug to survive because I don’t even have the strength to stand up if I’m not on it....
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1. Good things are happening.
2. I’m nervous. Is that normal? Is that ok?
3. This snow is fucking ridiculous.
4. Oh. Debt. Right…I should do something about that.
5. I’m going to lose my mind. What mind I have left.
6. I need a fucking job. I’m a loser.
7. So, there’s this voice in my head; the voice of doubt/cynicism/damages. This voice tells me...
1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8 (hang.)
1. To quote Steve (www.stalkcaptainsteve.com): WTF EARTH???
2. You’re not allowed to call him that. I love you but no one is allowed to call him that.
3. What the hell happened to my friends?
4. I’m going to live off of breakfast sandwhiches…that can’t be healthy.
5. “But if things dont work out like we think And theres nothing here to ease the ache But it theres...
Here's to enduring the tough times and living, to...
The following is from Cathiehilston.com, Hope (This is on here because my mother is my rock. She is the person who has held me up through it all, who has never turned her back on me. She is who, one day, I would like to be just like.)
01 March 2008 - HOPE SPRINGS ETERNAL For my daughter Allie Hope. I finally know what to include on this page of my site. I finally know why I haven’t had a...
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1. You make me feel so much better.
2. Don’t you fucking dare tell me shit about my relationship. You all have done enough of that before, and some of you I will never fucking forgive. The last time I did all this it ruined my life, the last person that mattered this much to me turned my world upside-down, and like many other things, once turned upside-down my world has never been the same....
1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8.9.10 (let me be human.)
1. Today is NOT my day.
2. You know why I never read things that other people write? (The private things, the reason I don’t snoop.) Because, out of anger or whatever, they probably said something mean about me. Something that was never meant for me to see, ever in life, because it’s something they said out of anger and would never actually say to me. People need to understand that...
Solsbury Hill, Peter Gabriel
Solsbury Hill, Peter Gabriel
Climbing up on solsbury hill I could see the city light Wind was blowing, time stood still Eagle flew out of the night He was something to observe Came in close, I heard a voice Standing stretching every nerve I had to listen had no choice I did not believe the information Just had to trust imagination My heart was going boom boom, boom Son, he said, grab your things, Ive come to take you home. To...
1.2.3.4.5.6.7 (my heart was goin' boom boom boom.)
1. Everything will be okay, love.
2. “When illusion spin her net Im never where I want to be And liberty she pirouette When I think that I am free Watched by empty silhouettes Who close their eyes, but still can see No one taught them etiquette I will show another me Today I dont need a replacement Ill tell them what the smile on my face meant My heart was going boom boom boom Hey, I said,...
Peter Gabriel-In Your Eyes From, Say Anything
Say Anything :)
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1. Happy today.
2. FUCK YOU. :)
3. Something’s gotta give, right?
4. “Dance ‘til you fall, love ‘til you die.”
5. I have a swollen eye. At least it’s the bigger eye, now they both look the same size. :)
6. “And in the end the words wont matter, because in the end nothing stays the same. In the end dreams just scatter and fall like rain.”
7. So,...
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1. I’m just some little girl learning how to tie her shoes.
2. I don’t blame him. It just hurts. It will always hurt.
3. How did we all get here?
4. Stop. Let it be static.
5. “I tried so hard…”
6. “You make me smile, please stay for a while…”
7. I’m in love with elipses. How silly am I?
8. I feel a little better now.
9. “I dream...
1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8.9.10.11 (just let her cry...)
1. You’re going to break me down. You kill my spirit every fucking day.
2. Don’t expect anything from me. I’m the problem child and you can’t fix me. I’m the amazing girl catastrophe, I’m destructive by nature. Just because you don’t like who I am doesn’t mean you get to change me. You can’t change me. I’m shit left with choices....
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1. You’re worth all the trouble.
2. I can’t beleive he said that to me. You don’t say shit like that to me. It shook me, not going to lie.
3. I’m going to bake cookies later. I hope I don’t burn the house down.
4. I love the smell of garlic, the whole house smells like it.
5. I want to play egyptian rat screw with someone. :( No one ever wants to play with me!
6....
1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8 (believe in love. love...
1. You fill my heart with joy.
2. I’m love stoned, and I love it.
3. You really are my best friend.
4. I love that people say shit like, “You guys are so perfect it’s sickening!”
5. How cool is it that you are just as big of a cell phone addict as I am?
6. We really are oh so fucking gross. :)
7. You’re smart and funny and crazy and perfect for me.
8....
1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8.9.10.11.12.13.14.15 (For Pants....
Do you remember…
1. When we drove through Attwater (The children of the corn live there, for real. haha.) & I saw those Alpacas? (“Are we going to drive this way on the way back? I wanna pet the Llamas!”…”Those are Alpacas.”…”I don’t care what they are, they look fluffy and I want to pet them.”…”They are covered in shit,...
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1. I don’t mean to pick fights with you.
2. Thank you so much for reminding me, every single day, about how much I fucked everything up. It really helps.
3. I can’t start waking up like that again, it’s only ever led to bad things.
4. Circumstance sucks.
5. I wish I was twelve sometimes.
6. All we are, we are.
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1. The first thing I thought was, “What just happened?” That’s not good at all.
2. It doesn’t matter what you say, it only matters what the other person hears.
3. We never wanted to be fucking monsters. Maybe we just had too many walls up for too long, or maybe we just don’t pay enough attention. Ignorance.
1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8 (evolve.)
1. Nothing should be “ours” right off the bat, it should evolve into it.
2. Never be consumed by anything. You’re world should never revolve around one thing.
3. Balance is the key.
4. He said: “You? The cold-hearted, anti-love girl? You are seriously saying that right now?” Yeah, man. I’m broken. (I love it.)
5. I seriously wish I could donate blood still.
...
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1. Watching the news makes me naseous.
2. What about everything?
3. I should be taking a shower right now.
4. Why can’t I snap my fingers and make everything perfect?
5. I miss Kent.
6. I’m in a great mood. :)
7. “Afraid of change, afraid of staying the same, when temptaion calls…we just slip away.”
8. Expectations will fuck you.
9. I like that we both think a...
1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8.9.10.11.12.13 (Love HARD.)
1. Be careful. I’m so fucking stupid.
2. Volgio.
3. It’s almost three and I’m not tired at all. Pathetic.
4. Why are you always trying to prove everyone else wrong? You seriously talk like you know what’s up, and honestly, you don’t know shit.
5. Just let her cry…
6. I refuse to let circumstances get me down, you’re still the best thing I’ve...
1.2.3.4.5.6 (rant. bitch.)
1. What the fuck, dude? Why is it that you find it so impossible to talk to me like I’m a fucking person? Instead, you talk to me in this condescending way that makes me feel like I’m your fucking child. It’s really not cool at all. How would you like it if when I had a problem with you I treated you like you were five? It’s not a nice feeling. I’m sorry that your...
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1. The dog is driving me fucking insane. Yes, the dog. I didn’t even know it was possible for a fucking dog to be so fucking annoying. It’s all about who raised them and this dog happened to be raised by the biggest fucking idiot on the face of the planet.
2. I seriously need to adjust my sleep schedule, this is insanity.
3. She told me: “The handbook would say that everything...
1.2.3.4.5.6.7 (I like to threaten to burn down the...
1. I’m going to burn the house down.
2. I don’t understand why you get so much fucking enjoyment out of trying to make me fucking miserable.
3. Why are people so ridiculous? Why do we overreact the way we do? Why is everything always the biggest fucking deal in the world?? The sun is still going to fucking rise tomorrow. And, if it doesn’t, if the fucking world ends tomorrow...
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1. Happy New Year, may it be a better year. :)
2. Strawberry cream cheese makes me smile. (Almost as much as you.)
3. How fast is too fast? How much time together is too much time together? Can’t someone give me a fucking rule book for this kind of stuff?
4. I’m afraid of babies. They cry, I cry. I can’t even pick one up, I’m way too afraid. They’re too small or...